Australia Newsletter May 2013
Hello Beloved One,
Awakening is the simple recognition that Love is Present and only Love exists. Forgiveness is the release of the belief in attack by recognizing that there are not different forms of one lie called ego. Spirit cannot attack or be attacked, and Christ Self is Spirit. There is no injustice to Spirit. All things work together for good. There are no exceptions, except in the ego's judgment. Forgiveness shows that there is no ego Now, for only a reflection of Love remains. The ego was the seeming belief that it is possible to be unfairly treated. I rejoice that God's Will is Love and that Love is real. You are the Christ, forever Perfect. Nothing at all has gone "wrong" in our Reality. You are forever Innocent and I See You. For this Fact I give thanks. I love You forever and ever!!!
Love always, David
Listen to David's talk on Unworthiness here.
The End of Illusions
There is nothing you can hold against reality. All that must be forgiven are the illusions you have held against your brothers. Their reality has no past, and only illusions can be forgiven. God holds nothing against anyone, for He is incapable of illusions of any kind. Release your brothers from the slavery of their illusions by forgiving them for the illusions you perceive in them. Thus will you learn that you have been forgiven, for it is you who offered them illusions. In the holy instant this is done for you in time, to bring you the true condition of Heaven.
Remember that you always choose between truth and illusion; between the real Atonement that would heal and the ego's "atonement" that would destroy. The power of God and all His Love, without limit, will support you as you seek only your place in the plan of Atonement arising from His Love. Be an ally of God and not the ego in seeking how Atonement can come to you. His help suffices, for His Messenger understands how to restore the Kingdom to you, and to place all your investment in salvation in your relationship with Him.
Seek and find His message in the holy instant, where all illusions are forgiven. From there the miracle extends to bless everyone and to resolve all problems, be they perceived as great or small, possible or impossible. There is nothing that will not give place to Him and to His Majesty. To join in close relationship with Him is to accept relationships as real, and through their reality to give over all illusions for the reality of your relationship with God. Praise be to your relationship with Him and to no other. The truth lies there and nowhere else. You choose this or nothing.
Forgive us our illusions, Father, and help us to accept our true relationship with You, in which there are no illusions, and where none can ever enter. Our holiness is Yours. What can there be in us that needs forgiveness when Yours is perfect? The sleep of forgetfulness is only the unwillingness to remember Your forgiveness and Your Love. Let us not wander into temptation, for the temptation of the Son of God is not Your Will. And let us receive only what You have given, and accept but this into the minds which You created and which You love. Amen.
Where the Rubber meets the Road!
As I sit here pondering on how to begin what wants to be expressed I notice the fear of 'not knowing' what to write arise! Funnily enough this is exactly what has been seen over the last few days; the call to actually allow Spirit to extend through, without the control of the mediating mind funnelling the light of love into the shape of some conceptual identity!
I have been watching the temptation to control every moment and get it 'right' based on the belief in being wrong or broken and then trying to adjust to avoid feeling the hidden beliefs of vulnerability and powerlessness beneath. Basically this could be seen as the seeker....seeking to improve, to help, to teach, to do something to be seen as worthy of love.
The truth is, the call just to 'stop' is screaming loudly in my heart. Stop trying to escape what hurts, what feels uncomfortable or messy. Stop trying to fix, take responsibility for everything, except my own thoughts! I have played this role all this apparent life. Escaped relationships, jobs, families, children situations (mySelf!!)....suddenly it's all too much, everything has gone pear shaped and I bolt, abandoning everything before I get abandoned!! At the same time I had been seeking escape I was also seeking for something else I could identify with to shore up the flailing little self! Perhaps a role as helper, spiritual self, minister, a newsletter writer?!
Now however I'm questioning this 'Suey doey' escapist mask and praying to see what's really going on! The prompts have been to stop and face rather that runaway! To actually 'hand over' to Spirit. ('Hand over' is a term used in horsemanship where the horse willingly surrenders to the rider, recognising, collaborating and trusting their leadership)
I notice thoughts that I would like to be seen as getting it together and be a shining example of Spirit itself! The truth is my interest in worldly doings is disappearing! All my ability to help, answer calls, organise retreats, being attentive to my surrounds, to know which direction I am headed.... (I found myself going the wrong way on the freeway the other day....those things just don't happen to Sue! Lol).... is all falling apart! I just can't hold it up anymore. The mask of a 'somebody' is slipping! Its time to face up to a crumbling image of a strong, capable, helpful, can-do self and look 'through' the veil of my own fearful construction!
And what's happening?.....I am increasingly attracted to resting in the sun, watching the light through the autumn leaves, enjoying the long shadows late in the day, hearing heavens song in the burbling creek! Sitting quietly, doing nothing! But what will happen if I just let go?!!! Can I let things be exactly as they are and face the apparent threat of not being loved?
'I will be still an instant and go home'.....Now that feels inspiring! It strikes me that Home offers an opportunity to Rest, which really is the call of the heart! To Rest in God is surrender, forgiveness, the end of seeking ....the open gateway to the Present Moment in all its Glory!
When you are still an instant, when the world recedes from you, when valueless ideas cease to have value in your restless mind, then will you hear His Voice. So poignantly He calls to you that you will not resist Him longer. In that instant He will take you to His home, and you will stay with Him in perfect stillness, silent and at peace, beyond all words, untouched by fear and doubt, sublimely certain that you are at home.
Miraculously the Spirit has orchestrated my life perfectly (though totally out of my control!) and I have been given a period of retreat from all the usual worldly doings while I visit the Canadian Devotional Centre in June and July. I had been feeling the prompt to extend, which was the answered by a call to join with my Canadian Mighties. I am reminded that there is nothing outside of me, everything is for me, it's all Mind and extending 'to others' is being revealed as the continued purification required for the acceptance of the atonement for myself, which, as Jesus tells us is my One and only True responsibility!
Joined with you in the free fall to Peace!
With Jesus in italics.
The pattern of restlessness had resurfaced and once again my mind spiralled down into apathy, despair and futility triggered by the thought that I would like to do something different. It seemed simple and exciting at first but as my mind searched through the myriad of things I could possibly do in the world, the more hopeless I became. Each idea that came to mind was rejected as none seemed to fill the desire to be something or to do something that felt meaningful and purposeful - a sense of visibility, freedom and achievement; each felt empty, unfulfilling and pointless. The underlying thoughts to all of this was that there was something wrong with me; that I must be doing something wrong; and that Spirit had forsaken me, therefore I must be very guilty and really, really sinful. I saw my mind wanting to bolt, feeling trapped and nowhere to bolt too! An image of a petulant child came to mind as I withdrew into the darkness, and as I blamed Spirit for my state of mind I also withdrew from Spirit.
Thankfully, I am not in charge of the Plan for peace of mind! Spirit had seen to the need for mighty companions and I was still willing and able to join and express my futility and hopelessness to a brother, and through his right-mindedness a small 'space' had opened up in my mind. This 'space' lead me to the MMT site where, with seeming indifference, I scrolled through the listed modules and opened up the Mind Training module. I started listening to the audios and watching the movie clips and I came to the Way of the Peaceful Warrior - 'Bolt' audio setup and video clip and the light came on!
I heard Jason talking about how Dan had been embracing his mind training but as the dark thoughts came to mind, driving him crazy, instead of seeing it as the egos resistance to moving deeper into the mind training, he blamed his teacher for the darkness; closed down the channel of communication and does a bolt! It described my state of mind perfectly and with this awareness the darkness lifted and the mind came to rest once again in peace and joy. Even though dark thoughts will continue to arise, when the desire to bolt and to forsake Spirit arises, I now have the understanding that it is the ego's resistance and to hang in, as it too will pass. Thank-you Spirit!