Australia Newsletter March 2013
Hello Beloved One,
I am so grateful you opened up and shared what is on your mind. That is always a big first step in forgiveness and inner healing. To open and share with a brother is a symbol of your willingness to hide nothing from the Holy Spirit. When progress in meditation and peace of mind seems slow and frustrating, this is always a Call togo deeper within. There is a tremendous fear of looking within, for the ego has convinced the sleeping mind that God will punish those that have "left" Heaven. The ego's world is filled with distractions and fantasy goals to offer many substitutes and diversions from the "dreaded" looking within. Christ teaches in the Course:
These two ideas, taken together, give some indication of the deep desire and commitment necessary to delve inward to the base of the unconscious mind if lasting peace is to be found. The Atonement, or Correction, is buried deep within under a cloud of guilt and unworthiness. The good news is that you are never alone and Help is always Given. There is a stage in the development of trust in which mighty companions appear in awareness. This is a stage of yielding to the deep desire to join in a common Purpose. You will find that the inner doorways will open easily with just a little willingness to follow the Holy Spirit's promptings. The ego is angry and fearful of God, yet the Quiet Answer is always available to sooth and comfort the restless mind that is open to receiving Inner Help. When you are tempted to give in to anger and depression just remember this: Trust would settle every problem right now. I have faith in You Beloved of God. I hope to always be in contact. Know that I am always in prayer for your peace and happiness. You are never alone and isolated.
I love You!
Decision Cannot be Difficult....
If I let Him choose for God for me!
Your decision to see is all that vision requires. What you want is yours. Do not mistake the little effort that is asked of you for an indication that our goal is of little worth. Can the salvation of the world be a trivial purpose? And can the world be saved if you are not? God has one Son, and he is the resurrection and the life. His will is done because all power is given him in Heaven and on earth. In your determination to see is vision given you.
Whenever you are not wholly joyous, it is because you have reacted with a lack of love to one of God's creations. Perceiving this as "sin" you become defensive because you expect attack. The decision to react in this way is yours, and can therefore be undone. It cannot be undone by repentance in the usual sense, because this implies guilt. If you allow yourself to feel guilty, you will reinforce the error rather than allow it to be undone for you.
Decision cannot be difficult. This is obvious, if you realize that you must already have decided not to be wholly joyous if that is how you feel. Therefore, the first step in the undoing is to recognize that you actively decided wrongly, but can as actively decide otherwise. Be very firm with yourself in this, and keep yourself fully aware that the undoing process, which does not come from you, is nevertheless within you because God placed it there. Your part is merely to return your thinking to the point at which the error was made, and give it over to the Atonement in peace. Say this to yourself as sincerely as you can, remembering that the Holy Spirit will respond fully to your slightest invitation: I must have decided wrongly, because I am not at peace. I made the decision myself, but I can also decide otherwise. I want to decide otherwise, because I want to be at peace. I do not feel guilty, because the Holy Spirit will undo all the consequences of my wrong decision if I will let Him. I choose to let Him, by allowing Him to decide for God for me. T-5.VII 4-.6
Forgiveness Ends the
Well here I am at the door of my Fathers House (!) literally (and symbolically!) as I am visiting my biological father for a few days! As I sit now on the front veranda praying for guidance for the message that wants to be expressed, I notice only gratitude in my Mind.
For some days I have been feeling the fear of not getting the newsletter out on 'time'. It just hasn't been flowing, and I have always felt pride around attentiveness to completing the newsletter by mid month. I've spoken the talk of letting Spirit guide but the reality has been a drive to get it 'right', be seen to be worthy and assuage the fear of God for another moment!
I hear this message.... 'Can I give the thoughts in the mind the same attentiveness as I give to all the goings on in form? Can I stop trying to control the world and turn instead and look upon the thoughts and beliefs that give rise to the dream instead?' Jesus tells us we are much too tolerant of mind wandering! Mmmmm!
I'm so grateful for the way we are all given the perfect backdrop for bringing these unconscious thoughts and beliefs to be exposed and forgiven! This is the only way the path is made clear to discovering the resting place of peace where happiness is remembered. So now, through this newsletter, I have had the opportunity to look with the light of Christ on thoughts of unworthiness and a clinging to the past to tell me what I am. None of it is true! The past is gone and the future does not exist. Time is the idea here that is begging to be set free!
I have pondered yesterday's thoughts which I could regurgitate here in an effort to deliver something inspirational to the reader! However my experience is one of a quiet joy and gratitude as I watch the little wrens in the rose bush at my side, feel the sun on my face and the scent of moist grass in the air. Dad is resting, dozing in his chair and I am here One with Source fulfilling my function to be happy and share that everywhere I'm sent so I may embrace what is ever Mine! It seems so easy for an ego, determined to improve, to never look within, to rely on external form/pictures to tell it what it is, to miss the present moment...... but you know.... I am no longer willing to place my faith in that!
So much anger and self hatred has been up for me of late. The ego throwing quite the tantrum of wanting to be special in Gods eyes.... a spiritual special, looking good, fulfilling my backdrops like a good little minister (or daughter!) would! Being busy on Holy Spirit doings and yet still resisting what 'is'. Only God is.... only peace is ....only vast free undefined Mind is.
Recognising that my call is to be 'done through' I remember that the Spirit is present and alive when I am following the guidance from within which looks like honouring inspiration and allowing each step of 'following' to wash me clean into a Present moment experience! And this dear friend is where the rubber meets the road and I join with Spirit in a present decision to know mySelf as peace.